Whoever I am...

Whoever I am, I am because you loved me.
And every time I miss you, I am thankful for you.
I was blessed.
And every tear and every ache of loss,
every time it crushes me that you are gone,
every bad memory of your passing,
every year that's emptier because you're not here,
was worth the years that you were.
was worth the love that you gave me.
Was worth the magnificence that was you.
I'd love for you to see me now,
To see how far I've come, to the place you always wanted me to.
To know that I finally understood your advice,
I know you would be proud of me.
I let it go. I understand now.
Thank you for all you tried to teach me.
For all you did teach me.
I'd love to see you now.
But I wouldn't see you for all my tears.
I would thank you so much for all the years.
And we'd laugh and we'd cry and we'd understand each other more and you'd bake and mother me and I'd resent it, like I always did, but I'd be thankful for you and you for me.
Whoever I am, I am because you loved me.
Whoever I am, I am because I loved you.